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Instead of my 10,11,12 and 1 o'clock on monday wednesdays I now have class at 8,break at 9,class at 10,11,break at noon and 1 o'clock on mondays wednesdays. The break at noon isnt so bad because I can eat lunch with friends, but the break at 9 sucks. I've switched because my previous 12 o'clock class was math, with a terrible teacher. so I switched but the only available time with a different teacher was 8 :(. But luckily hes a great teacher, I've had him before. I have nothing to do during my 9 o'clock break though! and since its so early in the quarter I still I have no homework really I can do at this time. I'm cooped up in the library, bored and sleepy. but, just 2 more classes and I'm going home to hopefully get some laundry done, but most likely just nap. heh. We paid rent and utilities yesterday. I didn't know how to spell fifteen right and spelt it fifthteen on my check for rent. I fixed it alright, how emberessing though. I just never memorized how to spell simple things like that. Is that so bad?
Todays my roomates "one year aniversary" and you'd think there would be love in the air but im not seeing it. I basicaly had to super hint to kyle to come shopping at safeway with me so he could get amber some flowers and chocolate. They're going out to dinner too which is good. Kyle asked me if dinner was a good idea. I laughed saying YES ANYTHING would be at this point. They just don't seem all to thrilled to be in a relationship. I feel bad. I'm so glad to be truley loving to Josh. My roomates though help me appreciate my situation a little more. I may be far from Josh, but at least we care about one another.
It's crazy how much being away from someone you really care about effects you. All I've been able to think about is Josh and I, and how far away we are, and how incredible the summer was, and how sad that I'm literally in school having to do it all over again until the next summer. But whats worse is I'm not going home this summer and thats what I think is hurting me the most. I have nothing to look forward too except the occasional weekends, which, dont get me wrong are amazing, but just never enough time to spend with your companian. I know I have a few breaks too, but just the thought of being long disance 24/7 is killing me. literally. I've gotten so sick since I've been here, a huge lack of sleep, I never feel rested, and I'm crying all the time. How do you get out of this place! I just need to adjust, and make it work. Josh tells me everyday that everythings going to be allright, but I'm just so lost in what I'm doing with myself, and I've been so stressed out compared to being STRESS FREE like a week ago. I miss him badddddly :(
I like Joshua James Clarke a lot.
I wish Tuesday came sooner than soon. I'm ready for my drive back to d-town already and seeing joshy and flying to california and just having an amazing last week of what summer is left before I have to hit the books and study hard for school. Cheney is so BORING. Amber is offically moved in and our apartment looks GREAT!! It looks SOOOO nice, not even close to what you'd think college kids would live in. It's very lovely. Amber and Kyle have been getting on my nerves a little though. They're just so particular, such as if i walk into costco in the entrance (this is a true story PS) There amber is yelling at me to walk through the exit? Or kyles behind me watching me cut the bread we're serving for dinner and telling me im doing it wrong, and this and that. What really bugged me was I was baking cookies and Kyle was trying to tell me how to let them sit and cool before putting them onto the foil. um hello, do I not know how to bake cookies, k thanks. Now i know this sounds so nit picky but they both have constantly been critisizing the way i do things, let me just do it! I let you do your things the way you want to!! Wow, its only been one real night that we've all lived together, and i can tell they're annoyed of me too. So i chose the best option and left them alone in the apartment all day while i got to go to my friend Jimmy's place to check out his house. Its HUGE. and really nice, but super exspensive for the boys. He's living with 2 other guys that I've met last quarter and became good friends with having classes with one of them and eating lunch with them and stuff. Today though Ambers mom payed for all our stuff at wal-mart, it was so awesome of her! ambers got a nice family. Her dad is the most hilarious man i've ever met in my life! he cracks me up so much. he could totally have his own stand up comedy show, and all he'd have to do is tell the stories of his life like he normally does. Shopping at costco was really fun, except amber and kyle are agree'd to buy stupid shit that i was just like "whatever" on. Such as, lots of meats, and big quanities of shit we are not going to need. We payed 10 bucks for these big salt and pepper grinder shaker things. now wtf are we doing buying that when kyle and I just bought some salt and pepper for like a 1.99 at safeway the other day. how much do we need? they just are buying way to much quanity of stuff at costco thats gonna go bad, such as this HUGE tub of cream cheese. but whatever, I tried explaining but they'll learn and hopefully change there shopping habbits to what i suggested, big bags of frozen foods like, NUGGETS! BURITOS! TATERTOTS! and we didnt even get ramen. WTF. im just super disappointed and a bit depressed and really lonely. I wish my roomates would be the layed back people they are, and I wish that they'd buy food and cleaning stuff that we actually need, because we arent millionares living in a house with a family. its just us 3, college kids, busy, with little money. We arent going to be making lasanea every night, or chicken and rice, or steaks. The way I see it is you buy the norm to live off of, and if you want a nice dinner for the night you run to safeway and buy what you need, NOT HUGE QUANITIES at costco when its all gonna go to waste. man i've rambled WAY to much about this. its not even that big a deal, im just irritated. I'm ready to just leave for a good week. pfft. please think good thoughts for me so i dont freak out on them already :(.
So it's official, I am now a caterer at EWU ! I start the following week after my trip out to Josh's grandpa's memorial service. It's going to be a really awesome job I think too. The coordinator basically posts the event slips up on a board, like a calender type board, and then the slips have the shift start time and stop time on it, as well as the number of people needed for that specific event. All I have to do is sign up on an event that will fit my schedule or the hours I'm looking for that week. Also they will call me and ask me to do specific events they think will be good for my schedule since they have a copy of it! Cheney's been really interesting since I've been back. The Apartments looking better and better as kyle and I continue to buy random stuff for it. I got to see Danni, Cameron, Melissa, and met a few others last night, everyone seems to be doing fine. Then today Kyle and I tagged along with a friend of ours, Matt, who needed to register for school and such. (Thats why im in the library now using the internet, we still dont have any...not utnil tuesday probably :-/) Anyway, Matt has CHANGED. I wont go into great details but he is much different that I once knew him, oh 2 1/2 months ago! haha, but hes still Matt and Its all good and I'll still hang out with him tons I'm sure. but man, he really has changed, and he agreed. Other than that and the new job its been a pretty boring day. I was so fustrated walking back and forth all over campus getting paperwork completed so I could start work soon. Amber comes tomorrow night with her familia around noon at latest. I'm trying to cook a salmon dinner tomorrow night for her family since my dad left us some nice salmon fishy's. But kyle isnt' sure yet if ambers parents are taking us out, or may have plans of there own...either way i know they're sleeping on our living room floor with ambers 2 brothers as well. It sucks for amber and kyle because ambers parents are already really bothered by kyle and amber sharing a room/ living together, so it will be quite interesting seeing amber and kyle wosy on into there room tomorrow night being forced to lets just say "keep it G rated" even though they haven't seen one another in months! They've already gotten into some trouble once before when Kyle stayed at ambers one weekend, and I know they're already pushing it as is. Poor them. Well I can't think of what else to write, other than I miss home! I got to talk to casey a bit on the phone and he was doing his usual as i was doing my usual if i were at his place, and it felt like we were almost just hanging out like we always did during the day. I can't wait to hang with him in a week, I already miss him! But who i miss most is joshaaaaaa boy. 3 more days :):):):) and then im on my way back to seattle then strait to california...hahah. Are we still staying at your place beth? I sure hope so, I want to smooch mable if she'll let me :)
My room is all setttled and cozy into a nice little jordyn room. I like it a lot, very spacious :). As far as the rest of the apartment goes though, it is very very empty. Kyle and I are just waiting for Amber to show up saturday with all our living room and kitchen lovely's, as well as kyles bed and basic living area. (poor kyle) We haven't had internet in the last 2 days, no one at the apartment has internet we can steal. SHOOT! So we are on campus right now, (outside, b/c they kicked us out. Aparently they close at 7:00...) But the apartment looks great, the people around here seem nice, haven't really made apartment friends. Danni just moved the rest of her stuff in today and shes just right next door so i walked on over and said hello. Her room is so tiny but its super cute and cozy. She's got tons of junk to decorate her walls with. I have barely anything, and half the things I did put up today have already fallen down! (I'm terrible at putting posters up ppft) Not much else to say, mostly just been running around buying little things for the apartment, but not to much because we really want to wait for amber and do it all together. Hope all is well..I miss joshy tons, but hes having a good ol' time catching fish, fish that I will get to eat soon when he gives me a little, hooray!
Dinner at Claim Jumper was incredible last night. Josh and I had a really good time. He got his ribs, I got my steak. We had Garlic Cheese Toast also, mmm mmm MMM! It was all very delicious. But, today is a sad day. I got to stay the night at joshs last night, and we woke up at 5am early today so josh could get ready and leave for his fishing trip. I was so tired and out of it, I wish I could re-live that morning now that I'm more awake. I feel like I didnt give him enough good kissins, or tightest hugs. In fairness it never seems enough though when you have to part ways. I'ts only 9 days until ill see him again, but 9 days just isn't soon enough. That last week we're together I'll make sure I make it the best. Because after that, I'm not sure when I'll see him next, and i really really hate that feeling. I'm not looking forward to it at all. What I am looking forward to is moving in soon, and just getting settled in to the apartment so I feel at home. It was so weird moving into the dorms last year, but after a week it felt good. I hope the same goes for the apartment. I'm so excited to be living out on my own, No DORM rules! ...just apartment rules. lol which are normal. I also can't wait to see some friends I didn't see all summer because they live on the other side of the state. Reuniting is going to be tons of fun.I'm just distracting my mind away from Joshy bo boshy. I was so emotional the second he walked left and I walked right to our cars. Spending everyday pretty much with him this summer has been a blast. and I'm sad to see that our last day of summer has come and gone, and that was that. ::sigh:: I'm so pittiful. enough. later
My Summer is windling down. I have a week left before I'm on the road headed to cheney. Whats worse is my summer with Josh is over this Sunday, for he leaves for a fishing trip and wont be back until after I've already gone. Theres still so much I need to get done before I leave. Pack for one, get my s.s.c out from the attic, guh that was an accident that its up there. Packings going to be the worst though. Making sure everything will fit inside my dads truck and my little car, its going to be intense. I wish summer could just start all over. I would love to re-live it all. The awesome thing is i have made time to come back tuesday to fly out with Josh for his grandpas funeral. I'm really glad I can be there for him physically. Theres going to be so much that happens soon that we wont be able to be together for, but I know that we'll make it work. He tells me everyday things we'll work out. I trust him. On a lighter note, I ran into, or shall i say he ran into me at the dog house,...anyway into an old friend! His names lazaro and casey and i will be spending our short time betwen our work schedules to hang with him. lazo and me were in debate together, and had a mutual friend that made us great friends. Anyway school, age, and whatever else made us grow apart but I cant wait to hang out with him and casey today. It will be like the 2 gay guys and there girlfriend :) haha.
